Blah-di-la-di-da...

Of Mine, Others', and Others' Made Mine.

2012-01-21T22:44:00.004Z

"At times she feels hopeless, and at times she feels hope, and in between, if she's lucky, there's a blissful kind of nothingness giving her time to rest. Rest is necessary, because both hopelessness and hope are tiring feelings to have, especially when some days, they alternate so rapidly it makes her wonder whether it's possible to feel hopelessness and hope at the same time. It might very well be possible; after all, she feels too old and too young, both too dreamy and too serious. And she thinks life is both too long and too short, and she finds herself thinking both too much and too little. Contradictions are everywhere around her, within her and probably within other people as well. Maybe hopelessness makes her feel hope, and hope makes her feel hopelessness. Maybe they bring each other about. Maybe she can't feel one, without also feeling the other."

- Random People

I adore moments like these. I read this just after I'd attempted to write a couple of posts; the first about our capacity for contradictory emotions and feelings, and the second about my inability to express myself in more than two sentences in an intelligible, written manner. You'd think it'd be easy - expressing yourself in words. Just write down what that stupid voice in your head that won't shut up keeps saying, no? No, it doesn't work like that, it seems. Not for me, anyway. At least someone else can. :)

One Day I'll Stop Contradicting Myself, But Not Today.

2012-01-21T22:17:00.005Z

From October 4th, 2010.
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There are all sorts of people in one's life.

The ones you can call at any odd hour to talk to.

The ones you can text random things to.

The ones you have to be careful what you say to.

The ones you can sit and be silent with.

The ones you can laugh hysterically with.

The ones you can't really talk to.

The ones who really know you.

The ones you don't really know.

The ones you can have mindless conversations with.

The ones who know just what to say and do.

The ones you can hug.

The ones you have to be cautious around.

The ones who won't leave you.

The ones you see, yet never get to know.

The ones you have to be on your best behaviour with.

The ones that you'll always remember.

The ones you forget.

The ones you like.

The ones that encourage you.

The ones that embarrass you.

The ones that annoy you.

The ones that amuse you.

The ones that are weird.

The ones that you'll never understand.

The ones you love.

All sorts of people in your life, and honestly, I think you need every single one of them. :)
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I may be starting to disagree with myself. Hahaha.

How Much Can You Contain?

2012-01-21T22:04:00.000Z

A lot, and no one even needs to know about any of it.

When your speakers break down. . .

2012-01-21T21:33:00.001Z

... you make your own music. :)

(And you make a mental-note to take your laptop to the IT Department to get it fixed.)

I Just Wish I Already Knew For Sure Now

2012-01-21T20:54:00.000Z

One day, we're going to find out this doesn't really matter. :)

"It's called pretending, and it's easy."

2012-01-15T20:57:00.004Z

"But you can't pretend forever."

"Well, I'm going to pretend that's not true."

Fix You

2012-01-15T20:56:00.002Z

♫ Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

2012-01-15T09:07:00.000Z

"Someday I'll forgive you, I will; but not today."

Escape

2012-01-13T05:59:00.003Z

"Madness is the emergency exit. You can just step outside, and close the door on all the dreadful things that happened. You can lock them away... forever."

- The Joker

2012-01-13T02:11:00.000Z

Midnight hair-dying, midnight cooking and midnight tailoring. :)

2012-01-12T09:03:00.001Z

"You're not like others. I've seen a few; I know. When I talk, you look at me. When I said something about the moon, you looked at the moon, last night. The others would never do that. The others would walk off and leave me talking. Or threaten me. No one has time anymore for anyone else. You're one of the few who put up with me."

- Ray Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451

2012-01-11T17:46:00.001Z

♫ And what was it inside you that love never satisfied?
The thin thread that held you, how did it come untied?
The grace you only ran from, the bridges that you burned.
The peace of mind you learned to live without.
I hope you've found it now.

What They Don't Tell You

2012-01-10T22:59:00.001Z

"They tell you, 'You don't know what you have 'til it's gone,' but they never tell you, 'You don't know what you don't have 'til you get it.'"

2011-12-28T23:10:00.001Z

"I feel quite unreasonably happy this minute, watching them both; knowing I can go and join them in the warmth, yet staying here in the cold."

- Dodie Smith's I Capture The Castle

2011-12-28T12:48:00.001Z

"Well, it's always been a way of life with me, isn't it? Always has been. I've always loved a laugh. I mean, how do you get through life otherwise?"

- Jonathan Coe's The House Of Sleep

2011-12-27T02:07:00.000Z

♫ Will it be like a fairytale?
Will it be like life was always meant to be?
Just like in the stories we were told.

2011-12-24T23:17:00.002Z

"When you have come to the edge of all the light you have, and step into the darkness of the unknown, believe that one of the two will happen to you: either you'll find something solid to stand on, or you'll be taught how to fly."

- Richard Bach

The Truth Is...

2011-12-19T01:30:00.004Z

"The truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything."

- Waiting for Forever.

2011-12-18T23:45:00.000Z

"Please never stop being odd in the most wondrous of ways."